But there was no exuberance on the train arriving here, only cheap existence, and the way life without value is made to feel; how you earned it was worth more than life itself. White collar up- ranking clerics were callous and indifferent and had sprawled their legs all over the seats, talking about the culling of people, that it is the decent thing to do away with us because there were too many, and they had to decide who is to die. They lauded the intervention into our daily lives with a manic martial system to keep us in check. This gloomy paradigm will die, and I got away from those jerks. Bath was a surreal place. I just knew where I wanted to go. Chain stores were textured elegantly into peach sandstone that I’ve never seen smoother anywhere ever, looking like model shops in a picture painting. I walked bare foot; the floor was so pristine I didn’t want to taint the ground. Then a dozen little deck chairs in pastel blue and lime lay in the middle of the walled city and we sat down in them. It was all so benevolent. The inn was called The Lamb and Lion and it was like the lion lain down with the lamb, and one day they will do. We ate in there every day. Our hotel was lovely and old with creaking floors, like haunted places should be. Ellis hinted at us that it had an atmosphere, and a lady told us it has had a lot of goings on in there and a history of debauchery, but I loved it. The first night there I just couldn’t sleep, I kept tossing and turning. I had an abysmal dream. In the dream Ben turned into a psychopath, and he had a nightmare exactly at that point, as if the dreams were synchronized. Our friends and the speakers all happened to be staying in that hotel too.
Enter
The next morning we arrived at the venue. Sara, who told me about the chequered history in the old hotel, said that none of them had slept well that night either. But I did love the chorus of the seagulls in the morning at dawn when they sang very loudly, and I would open the window wide hoping one would fly in. I like to follow my bliss. And this is Karen Sawyer’s reason for feeling her ARC convention is so important at this time, I think. Life becoming more intense, it is about gathering together to facilitate this quickening. We are expressing who we are. Each and every one of us has a unique perspective on things. We are like individual strands going out from the epicentre and each one of us sees the centre differently. No two people will ever see things like you do or I do, and this is how it should be. Respect the essence which makes each person unique never don’t put each other down and lose sight of yourself. All is a reflection of you – bring it back to yourself and don’t externalise it. Karen Sawyer is a musician and organiser of the Alternative Research Community events and is the author of ‘Soul Companions’ and ‘Dangerous Man’ that gave birth to the ARC events. She used to be editor for the Dot Connector magazine. Karen did an introductory piece dedicated to the Sheela Na Gig as an opening. The Sheela Na Gig is a quasi-erotic stone carving of an old female exhibitionist figure usually found squatting on the arches and doorways of Norman or Romanesque churches, secular buildings and old castles. Karen said she has had this little lady with her for some years and it has raised people’s eyebrows somewhat. They can be found in Norway, Switzerland and France and all over the UK and Ireland. The images are grotesque, sometimes comical, and they’ve usually been associated with hags or old women. The carvings are often much older than the building and don’t seem to be part of it, having been taken from a previous older building. Why were they put there? What purpose are they serving? There is a lot of debate over these mysterious statues and what they mean. The theories go that they are: pagan idols; a warning against lust and lose behaviour, which would place them in the medieval era; that they repel the devil and the evil eye from entering the door; that they are an example of the Goddess; and another is that they are fertility icons - it’s at variance to believe that figures of crones with a startling, hag-like appearance and shrivelled or next-to-no breasts, were ever meant to symbolize procreative forces. But they are all different and Karen believes they were put there to mark portals or gateways, and in this convention in this moment, we were opening a gateway and going through a transition that expanded our awareness and experience. Opening and bringing through, like art, are feminine actions. Karen has noticed we have given procreation to a lot of new things, and perceives a quickening since the last ARC convention six months prior to this one. Masculine and feminine are labels we put on energies. We all have the duality of these energies within us regardless of what reproductive organs we have. From the joining and balance of masculine and feminine, a third energy is born from the two to make a trinity. The image of this portal marked a stepping into a special and sacred week-end for us. Karen sang a song of no words but chanting, naming it ‘Entrance’ or ‘En-trance’, with a reverberating box that echoed her chants back until they rise in a crescendo.
Hallowed be our roots
Michael Dunning was featured in Karen’s book ‘Soul Companions’ and he does shamanic work and gives lectures in embryology. Michael came to tell us about what a truly astonishing and fascinating being the Yew tree is. Following a near death encounter with an elemental spirit in the far north of Scotland and a second NDE several years later, his health was entirely destroyed. Michael was not really able to live on his own or care for himself and didn’t have a clue what to do for a career. He felt convinced he was dying and did not have much time left, and became lucid. He experienced visions regularly, with prolonged out of body states and intense pain. He was rescued by a friend who lived in a small cottage close to a two thousand year-old female Yew tree. This marked the beginning of a ten year period of healing, and he initiated himself into Shamanism. This healing of sickness was all done through nature in the vast enclosure of the tree. Michael believes the Yew tree was once regarded by indigenous Shaman healers as a great source of occult knowledge and the embryonic language of healing, the embryonic tree of life as its head descends and ascends like in an embryo. The embryo starts as a two-dimensional being, as inversion, which is the experience of being turned inside out and coming back into body in circulatory movements. The Yew tree is the tree that grows upwards and downwards. When they are left to their own devices they grow back down towards the ground - the symbol of the thirteenth rune, a symbol of new growth. There are very few Yew trees left in their natural state and if they are not tampered with they are immortal (most trees have had buttresses put in them filled with concrete). Yew trees grow hollow, and connect back into the ground to make a new trunk. The tree clones itself by growing back into the ground and regenerates itself. Yew trees are hermaphroditic – they change their sex. Michael’s initiation experience under the Tree was blood – the bark is often red; some ooze and look like blood, the ‘Knights of the Red Brands’ 4-10th century protectors of the House of Tara is linked to it, and it gives off a hallucinogenic toxin that gives a burning sensation in the eye, and gives rise to altered states under the tree. Where there is poison there is also a cure. We have tasted enough poison. Yews have a feminine birthing nature. Figurines have been carved with a Yew branch on them near the vulva – this signifies birth. (The stork is a symbol of birth, there’s a stork standing atop a Yew rune on images that you find on Rosslyn Chapel and places like that.) This is a portal connecting us with the natural world, and a keeper of ancient memory. The yew tree is like a magic mirror to mankind; for Michael it brought back his consciousness. Yew trees were decimated for wood for warfare, using it as bows. The National Cancer Institute realised these trees were good in cases of cancer. Yew is a healing balm for cancer and we’re looking at a tree that is the most incredible tool for rejuvenation, and yet there is a big army because of the Yew tree that’s been misused for the most negative agendas. It’s a miracle Yews still exist. Who is protecting them? A group interested in protecting these trees don’t want knowledge about them to be known. The knowledge was suppressed and trees were destroyed. What happened to these Yews? Where did they all go? Significant place names in the UK give away their earlier prevalence, imprinted into the land: Yew Isle, Yew Wood, Yolton, Yew Valley (significant in Norse mythology), Yew Vale etc. How come we don’t know all of this? The knowledge of Yew trees has been lost. Yet Yew trees have survived catastrophes. The Yew is the World Tree Yggdrasil. In Norse mythology humanity originated as the “Hallowed Seed” of the World Tree and we are children of these ancient sentient beings on our planet, who each of them reached three of their primordial roots into three worlds, each world containing a divine well – the world of gods, the world of giants and the world of the dead. http://www.yewshamanism.com/ and http://www.sacredyewinstitute.com/
Pull your fear up out of you
Next up, we had Peter Taylor, an environmentalist and bird shaman who had his awakening as an adolescent while lying down looking at the sky seeing a falcon fly over that exchanged a look with him. It was his totem bird. We have seen Peter before at a good few conferences and he came to talk about Shamanism combined with climate change, and survivalist issues. He claims to be no climate change denier and believes in peak oil, and doesn’t buy ‘there’s enough for everybody’, that two billion are gonna go without the washing machine etc they want. He believes that we are heading towards a crunch – population, food, climate, economy. He is of the opinion that fossils and oil are running out. (I believe there’s an answer to that: free energy, if indeed oil is running out at all. Check out the findings and experience of ex-oil executive, Ian R Crane at http://www.ianrcrane.co.uk/. I say it’s all engineered.) Peter noted that resulting from the Pakistan floods, cattle are dying of cold in Russia. The floods have got all world leaders wondering about its cause and it’s not CO2. His concern was how to stop humanity destroying itself. He thinks something else will intervene, like economic collapse. The USA, Europe and Japan are bankrupt at state level and investing in BRIC countries – Brazil, Russia, India, Indonesia and China. These countries are free of debt. They have the money; rich countries can buy their way out. What do they do with it? he says. Peter provides the ecological science background for the team at www.ethos-uk.com. He is into research and policy analysis on environmental issues, having advised governments, the European Commission, and UN organisations. He has contributed to international treaties on ocean protection. Recent work has included consultancy to UK government agencies and non-government organisations on renewable energy policy and rural issues (he sits on the National Advisory Group for the Community Renewables Initiative (a joint Countryside Agency and DTI programme). He is the author of the book “Chill”. (See my article “Chill” at http://spreadingtheword-now.blogspot.com/search?updated-max=2010-08-15T15%3A14%3A00-07%3A00&max-results=7.) The climate change with us now is mostly due to natural cycles says Peter, recently linked to the solar minimum. He thinks oceans have started to cool and there’s been no extra warming of the planet in the last ten years. The ocean heat content is the real measurement of warming. The planet is losing heat this minute not gaining it. Oceans have stopped storing heat since 2005. There’s more ice in Antarctica than ever. Al Gore set up a carbon trading bank six years through Goldman Sachs charging YOU carbon tax bills to pay straight into their bank, to an undemocratic, unelected group. Money doesn’t go to anyone elected. Really dark people have been involved with surveillance of our activities. Peter found that his enemies were those ‘friends of the earth’ and other Greenpeace figures who tried to attack, remove and discredit him when “Chill” came out last year and he asks was it an error? Was it deliberate? In whose interests are the messages? Peter has knowledge of renewable energy, turning one fuel into another, and they don’t want to know. He started to think ‘Hmmm, what’s going on?’ Spiritual truth doesn’t enter into the equation in the environmental movement. Greenpeace are in cahoots with the UN! They tried to get a green type activist on the Council in Glastonbury – one. The rest are freemasons, doctors, etc, who run the town. People researching for genuine truth are NOT funded. Little wonder that most of what we are being offered is dealing with the symptoms and not healing. The cost of survivalism as is being put to you is at the cost of beauty and soul. What’s the point in living if all those are sacrificed? What to do? Grow your own food. Use sustainable housing. Reform the banking systems. They do not want it. They want people industrialized. They won’t allow forest protection or de-militarisation. We require transition to a higher level of consciousness. Peter says we need to work on our chakras. The first root chakra = security. If you doubt your security the kundalini energy is not available to you while you are worried about survival – it’s fucked. (So I don’t worry about survival.) The second chakra is to do with sexuality. The third is personal power. The fourth is the heart. We must be centred in the heart not the head. The fifth chakra is the voice. Everyone should be free to verbalise their opinion. Don’t be afraid to speak the truth. The sixth chakra is vision and visualization, individual and collective dreaming. And the seventh chakra surrenders the ego of self to a higher consciousness. Peter said that the heart shrivels in Love is there is no security down here to deal with our fear. The heart has to be empowered from below. In Shamanism, he says, they use Blues Sufi music to move these lower emotions up, up, up to the heart from below. THIS is the work that’s got to be done. Create the freedom to move and a vibrant community. How? Through meditation on the seven chakras and the return of feminine wisdom. There must be respect and protection for tribal societies. Shamanic knowledge must be retrieved and taught in history. This knowledge has gone and herbalists have been called ‘witches’. Sacred sexuality of the kundalini must be taught; there must be celebration of the erotic and respect for menstruation and dreamtime. Lack of respect for menstruation is all over our culture. There must be empowerment of the will and stimulation of the creative mind. We must nurture development and vision. Sticking an alphabet in front of a child before the age of eight is bad. And a lot of our culture avoids the subject of death; Shamanism prepares for it. The divine feminine is no trivial eye candy. To develop our voice and vision, Peter recommended that we go and see the film ‘Gainsbourg’ because of its celebration of eroticism and beautiful women.
The devolution of Man
Where did we come from as human beings? All physicists know about Pierre and Marie Curie, but they never told you that they were into the paranormal, did they? They never told you that human fossils have been caught in the strata bed with old dinosaurs, did they? We’re supposed to have grown from apes into a wise, wise man, as the story should run according to Darwin. Scientists always, always endorse Darwin’s theory; most people do, and we always see these key figure heads on paper money. How about a make-over, a Vedic alternative to this theory, and christening it the theory of ‘human Devolution’? How about alternative researchers who are not afraid to go off the beaten track to seek the truth and declare it? Even though their findings get called a ‘cornucopia of dreck’ and ‘humbug’? Even though they get mud thrown at them for doing so? One such individual of integrity came to share such an alternative postulation with us. You know, someone can be sitting right next to you and you don’t realise who they are, as in the case of Michael. At that time in the morning all I could think of was stuffing breakfast down my chops. The stranger that was seated next to our table in the hotel restaurant that morning at breakfast was none other than an eminent American researcher by the name of Michael A Cremo, and we are thankful we had a good conversation with him. He was talking about his book that he wrote called ‘Forbidden Archaeology’ which I have not read. I remember him saying he likes to rename it ‘Forbidding Archaeology’, probably because there’s enough information in it to fill an excavation site. Michael pondered on how modern Darwinists tell us that we are complex organs of molecules, material beings. Even when we love we are chemicals playing it out in our brain, they say. It’s an illusion that we are machines made of matter from our evolved mother Lucy. He does not accept this theory and evidence contradicts it. But as people do accept it, alas they become materialistic in the goals they set themselves. (It is deliberate in my opinion.) An over materialistic sense of identity and we are in competition for survival to preserve our selfish genes. This attitude is responsible for the intense levels of conflict in the world. The solution has to got to be in going back to the root of who we are. We need a new science. The existing model needs to be thrown out the window and we have to start over, with the question: what is a human being? What we are NOT is just a set of chemicals. We are a mix of matter, mind and consciousness. Eight years of digging and plunging the depths of archaeology and ancient Sanskrit writings tell us humans have existed since the beginnings of Earth – ‘Forbidden Archaeology’ and ‘The Hidden History of the Human Race’ (Michael’s research) tell us we existed millions and millions of years, by virtue of bones, artefacts. Michael asserts we did not evolve up from matter; instead we devolved down or from the realm of pure consciousness or spirit. He bases his response on modern science and the world's great traditional wisdom, having studied ancient Sanskrit and the Vedic philosophy of ancient India. He talked about an archaeological site in Mexico at Hueyatlaco, in Valsequillo, where Virginia Steen-McIntyre, a geologist, was called to the site and a team excavated the site in 1962 using four methods. Sophisticated man-made tools were discovered in geographic strata that multiple peer reviewed studies have dated to ca. 250,000 years before the present. These findings were orders of magnitude older than the scientific model which generally traces widespread human migration to 13,000 to 16,000 years ago, and needless to say, controversial. They said ‘we can’t accept that’. They refused to publish the age for the site. So she published it independently and was labeled a troublemaker and a maverick publicity seeker. She got backlash from the scientific community who repudiated it, and it has only occasionally been discussed. Discoveries of J Reid Mar, by Henry Fairfield Osborn, say that humans were existing in England two to three million years ago. In 1979 May Leakey discovered footprints in Laetoli that are not modern human footprints. William B Holmes, anthropologist, is one of the people responsible for knowledge filtering. In 1993 when Forbidden Archaeology was released there was a vast array of response, some scathing, and some not, one from Graham Hancock who wrote Fingerprints of the Gods referred to it as "One of the landmarks in intellectual achievements of the late 20th century," and it got international attention from both positive and negative viewpoints. Then in 1996 NBC aired its special The Mysterious Origins of Man, hosted by Charlton Heston, and featured the book. Establishment scientists felt threatened by this programme. They lobbied the Federal Communications Commission to censure and fine NBC for airing it but they were unsuccessful. Michael talked about out-of-body experiences, heart attack patients leaving the bodies. Reports given by patients match doctors’ reports. Ian Ian Pretyman Stevenson, MD, was a psychiatrist and he was head of the Division of Perceptual Studies at the University of Virginia, which investigates the paranormal. He considered that the concept of reincarnation may supplement those of heredity and environment in helping modern medicine to understand aspects of human behaviour and development. He travelled extensively for over 40 years investigating 3,000 childhood cases that suggested to him the possibility of past lives. Stevenson was the author of several books, including Twenty Cases Suggestive of Reincarnation (1974), Children Who Remember Previous Lives (1987), Where Reincarnation and Biology Intersect (1997), Reincarnation and Biology (1997), and European Cases of the Reincarnation Type (2003).. He reported that the children he studied frequently mentioned having died a violent death, with what seemed to be clear memories of the manner of death; but also they usually started to speak of these past lives between the ages of two and four, and by the time they reached seven or eight, they ceased to do so. Critics have picked at Stevenson’s research methods and conclusions, and his work has been described as pseudoscience – again, the same old story. The genius Carl Sagan said there are three areas of ESP which deserve serious study. Evidence that there is more to a human being than a set of chemicals living in a multi-leveled universe, or multi-verse, is:
1) Communication from departed humans;
2) Possession by departed humans of living bodies;
3) Apparitions;
4) Possession by super-human beings (such as demonic possession, as in ‘The Exorcist’)
5) UFOs and alien abductions
An example of communication from the departed is Sir Oliver Lodge, a scientist remembered for his studies of life after death and study of telepathy; he was a member of the Ghost Club. (He was a member of the Fabian Society.) (I have personally been to a channeling and witnessed the voice of Sir Oliver Lodge come through.) Lodge visited several mediums and wrote about his experience in channeled books. An example of possession is ‘The Exorcist’ which is based on an actual exorcism. A boy was possessed by a spirit that was extremely demonic and did super-human type things. UFO/alien abductions and nuts n bolts researchers report telepathy and people being floated through walls. John E Mack, psychiatrist, wrote ‘Passport to the Cosmos’. He did decade-plus study of 200 men and women who reported recurrent alien encounters. He initially suspected that the persons were suffering from mental illness, but when no obvious pathologies were present in the persons he interviewed it piqued his interest. Mack collected data and ignored the prevailing materialist, dualist and "either/or" analysis, and began concerted study and interviews. Many of those he interviewed reported that their encounters had affected the way they regarded the world, including producing a heightened sense of spirituality and environmental concern. (That has been reported by abductees Mary Rodwell has spoken to.) Mack died in a car crash a little while after he did a conference in Glastonbury where Michael met him. In Shamanism there are reports of travel between levels taken by spirit guides. There are masses of Vedic literature on the Vimanas (spacecraft). There is the communication through crop circles. The evidence goes on. We devolved. We began our existence as Love, as beings of pure consciousness. We became selfish and egotistical, descending to the lower levels like an angel falling in the gross matter of bodies. We became consciously covered by matter. We fell from pure consciousness – man fell from grace, which has many forms. Michael adds that the Demiurge is a form of pure consciousness translated into material form. The creator God, Brahman, descended to a male/female Goddess and the sexual activity begat us, making use of Bijas or seeds. Life on earth has been seeded from extra-terrestrial sources and this life on earth is also seeded elsewhere in the cosmos. Forms, plants, animals – are forms from sexual activity of gods and goddesses on a higher level. Higher beings can manipulate and produce bodies not of their own kind through interspecies embryo transfer. There’s a process where it can be reversed to restore consciousness to its original state – yoga, contemplation and Shamanic exercises. The cosmos is divided into regions that contain different proportions of the three substances of purely spiritual consciousnesses, mental organizations, and ordinary matter, in that order. Conscious beings exist in all regions. Man is very old and degraded from pure consciousness - to mind - to material body. This is the devolution of Man – the Fall of Man.
http://www.mcremo.com/index.html;
http://www.humandevolution.com/;
http://www.forbiddenarcheologist.com/
Wilhelm Reich and UFOs
There was another gentleman we were sat with at the breakfast table, and also the previous evening when we joined the others sat outside on the terrace for a drink. Ben already knew him having met him before, but this was the first time for me. He was Ken Thomas, parapolitics researcher. Jerry E Smith was his dear lost friend, whom Ken paid a tribute to for a decent length of time in the introduction. Ken showed us a filmed lecture that Jerry had done, on the screen. As a memoriam and to serve, Jerry’s website http://www.jerryesmith.com// remains online after Jerry passed away on March 8, 2010, at the age of 59. Jerry had been battling with pancreatic cancer for the past two months. Who is Jerry? He was s a writer, researcher, activist, editor and lecturer, and made over 300 radio and television appearances and successful speaking engagements from Brisbane to The Bahamas. He is the author of:“WEATHER WARFARE: The Military's Plan to Draft Mother Nature” and HAARP: The Ultimate Weapon of the Conspiracy; and co-author with George Piccard (who wrote LIQUID CONSPIRACY: JFK, LSD, the CIA, Area 51, and UFOs) of: SECRETS OF THE HOLY LANCE: The Spear of Destiny in History & Legend. Since HAARP's North American release in 1998 it has been translated into Portuguese, in 2005, by Editora Aleph of São Paulo, Brazil as "ARMAS ELETROMAGNÉTICAS: Seria o Projeto Haarp a Próxima Ameaça Mundial?" (that means: 'Electromagnetic weapons: will Project Haarp be the next global threat?') and in 2001 it was translated into Polish by Amber Supermedia as "HAARP Bron Ostateczna." In 1991, Jerry Smith and Jim Keith, author of Black Helicopters over America: Strikeforce for the New World Order and numerous other conspiracy and mind control books, founded the National UFO Museum (NUFOM) in Reno, Nevada. From 1991 to 1994 Jerry was the Executive Director of NUFOM, while Mr. Keith acted as the Chairman of the Board. Jerry also edited and wrote for NUFOM's quarterly journal, "Notes from the Hangar". Timothy Leary was a psychologist who researched into psychedelic drugs later on in life and encouraged the use of LSD for tuning in. He died in 1995 from prostate cancer. Jerry Smith as mentioned suffered pancreatic cancer. Jack Ruby died of lung cancer. So did Meg Russell. Ken said ‘Say what you will about fast acting cancers’, almost a hint at not ruling out any possibility these people were taken out. Jerry’s passing came one month before the gulf oil spill. Jim Keith who wrote ‘Black Helicopters over America’ fell from a stage and broke his knee at the annual Burning Man Arts Festival held in Nevada, he went to the hospital there and died shortly after surgery, when a blood clot entered his lung, although the coroner's report listed the cause of death as "blunt force trauma". Cryptically, he stated this before his death: "I have this feeling that if they put me under I'm not coming back". Jerry used to talk about HAARP – ‘the higher in the atmosphere something is released, the longer it stays in the atmosphere’ he said. As we know, chemtrails or warming is not caused by CO2 or bovine farts. Pilots could be fed with ‘It’s to modify the weather, to avert global warming’ while the secret purpose is very different. Google ‘GO engineering’. They are involved in monitoring aerosols. Two factions of the elite, the bankers and Watermelons, according to Jerry, are trying to create a world government. The Watermelons believe western civilization is a bad idea and want to take us back to the preindustrial revolution and see an excuse for a police state and chemtrails. (The same tiny group of elite controls both bankers and Watermelon families right at the very top of the pyramid.) The control of hurricanes is another excuse. The speech said we have proof humans can intentionally set off earthquakes. A lot of this is classified knowledge. In 1989 Project Seal developed a project to develop tsunami bombs that could play a role greater than the atom bomb. He said: ‘I want you to take action because this is your planet’. After the film ended and Ken started to speak, his topic was mainly on Wilhelm Reich and how he used orgone energy to chase and combat UFOs. Wilhelm was an Austrian-American psychiatrist and psychoanalyst, actually one of the first psychoanalysts. He worked with Sigmond Freud. It was later in life when he discovered orgone. Wilhelm Reich went to Arizona with orgone equipment. He believed that DOR (deadly orgone, which is negative orgone energy) came from the exhaust of UFOs. He was locked up because of the work he did with orgone that would be liberating for mankind. Several of his publications were burned by the FDA. He died in jail of heart failure. Ken uncovered some information. He found out that the American government WAS interested in Reich’s work before he was smeared and lambasted. In February 1954 the president, Eisenhower, just vanished at some event and was gone several hours. Where ever he went, Eisenhower went to see Reich, who had got very into the subject of UFOs in his later years and thought they might be connected with orgone energy. When he was working with his cloudbusters, he had some experiences of them. People using cloudbusters today have said that they have a tendency to attract UFOs when they are in use. Reich discovered positive orgone and the negative orgone radiation DOR (deadly orgone). The latter can make people very ill, even kill them. Reich once used the Cloudbuster on a UFO – he may have destroyed it. Any government will take an interest in anything that can be weaponized. So Reich has had dealings with Eisenhower, and he’s been to Roswell and has spoken about the crash in 1947. If Reich rebelled or wouldn’t go along with their negative agenda, well… look what happened to him. Maybe he only wanted his researched to be used for the good of mankind. Ken talked about a link between the Kennedy assassination and the UFO sighted on Maury Island, an island near Seattle. There was a boat sailing close by that island in 1947 that was attacked by UFOs. One of the crew was threatened off talking about it by ‘Men in Black’. The witness, Fred Crisman, saw the UFO and he was subpoenaed as part of an investigation in the JFK assassination. I don’t know, I just think Kennedy was killed for the same reason that anyone is who poses a threat for some reason. No matter who was used to do it, they are all vehicles for the same force. And there is a covert infiltration of ufology.
Bringing the holy to the possible
This was a lovely service, an exercise we all partook of. Nick Clements is the son of a journalist communist and began as a stand-up comedian. He became a community artist. He worked in New York, Philadelphia, Berlin. He came to talk about Shamanism and indigenous people. What does Nick ‘do for a living?’ His job is to create beauty in the world – to bring others to an understanding of how beautiful they all are in their creativity! In Mayan Guatemalan tradition the thirteen cycles are called worlds. The first was given birth to by the thirteenth, and the thirteenth was impossible, it doesn’t exist! Don’t challenge what this says, ok? Just draw it in. It does not exist BUT…each world is of a duration of 20,000 years. We are just finishing the fourth and stepping into the fifth. We are shamanic. Each and every one of us has a true indigenous nature within, in the earth that dwells in us. We all have wisdom, knowledge, beauty. Up until the stage of the fourth world 40,000 years ago we were at the community stage like bees in a hive; the concept of individuality began with the fourth cycle and the bee became an individual. They gave themselves because they believed in the consciousness of being whole. We need to connect to that idea of the collective. Shamanism is all about that, about connection to the whole and to ancestry. After 20,000 years of living as individuals we need to relearn these connections to the past. Our ancestors sang us into existence. Let’s exist. “I am” did not exist 40,000 years ago. Concepts change. Then someone said “I am me”, and we spent the last 20,000 years developing the individual. The next cycle was science, the “Prove that you exist!” which cut off the holy, the impossible. New science says: “Now the impossible exists”. Maybe string theory has thirteen worlds?! The fifth world is the convergence of those two concepts - “How can I ritualise science? Bring those two things together? Bring the holy to the possible?” The soul’s purpose is that the individual comes with a gift we bring when we are born on a community and individual level. So, the third circle of life is about collectivism and ancestry; the fourth is about the individual and the scientific; and the fifth brings the two together. The fifth world is a spiral, it’s holistic, and this holistic idea is a very new concept that must indeed be because of a shift in consciousness. The dark of science and the light of shamanism meet and embrace. We have spent too long in opposition. 2012 is a door, a gate. Don’t freak out! Don’t fill it with fear, we’re just moving there. Step into love!!! Accept your planet as a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful PLACE!!!! How can we bring those two things together? Beauty. In California a lot of people are lovely, they’re full of light. It is vitally important to not judge. There’s no point in judging pissheads going out for a fight to shed blood – they’re desperate people. This next age is about empathy and compassion. You can’t judge someone who gets flabbily obese from eating shit food – you don’t know what misery led him to it. Walk a mile in another man’s moccasins before you judge him. There has to be a change in attitude. But we hippy free loving people are as vulnerable as fuck. It is dangerous because there isn’t the sense of security and a lot of men fall back on violence – and that’s not manly. The sweet part about this Sunday service is we were each given a piece of paper to write down a loving message to someone else, and when we had done it, had to fold up the piece of paper and put it in a bag. The bag was shuffled and the pieces of paper were passed around. We all got another message written by someone else. This was the message I got:
A drawing of the galaxy, with the words “Love the universe that is me” written in a spiral flowing out from the periphery of the galaxy; our solar system was marked with a cross where it is, on one of the spiral arms of the Milky Way.
And this was my message to someone else:
“All those lying on a cold church step
Grieving their lost children and crying
They’ve done with it and wept
I am the gloom collector who came in sighing
Muting the shadows away
We shall take them under our wing
To them refuge bring
No sheep shall be left to wander
ALL WILL BE GATHERED IN”
Love never dies
At the commencement of this moving talk by Ellis C Taylor, there were problems with the laptop used to project his photographs and evidence on the screen. It played up! At every conference there have nearly always been technical problems of some sort and some often say: “Someone doesn’t want this information out”, with a giggle and a smile, and being as we are we all we sussed that and laughed it off. And of course by doing that, the power that didn’t win waned, probably moving on another vibration to synch with, and there would be another laptop we could use and everything would be fine. This talk was to urge people to take notice of their own experiences, and is a true account of Ellis’ own personal experiences of communication and contact with beings from other worlds and alternative realities. He was asking us to look at what is being hidden from us in so many ways. He said Michael Jackson has had experiences not too different from himself as he was much tied into the mega spell that is about the stopping of human consciousness. He has unravelled Jacko’s death using numerology - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nk_io1iatzE&feature=related. To anyone still pondering on the extraterrestrial question, we are not alone; we never were and never will be. We are not lonely accidents of an explosive cosmic scramble, and our lives are not meaningless, inconsequential aftershocks of it. Ellis met Mary Rodwell (http://www.acern.com.au/) in 1996, the founder and director of ACERN, the Australian Close Encounter Research Network. She provides counselling for contactees and wrote the book “Awakening: How Extraterrestrial Contact Can Change Your Life”. I have written about Mary in an article called 'Contact' at http://whatliesbeyond-ustane.blogspot.com/2010/07/glastonbury-symposium.html. Ellis Taylor’s early research was to do with missing children and Satanism and found Sandringham was linked to it. There is a regiment made up of Sandringham workers. Ellis has been uncovering the hidden, that’s why his website is called ‘Looking into the Dark Places’. His site has been explored by a lot of secret agencies, a lot of traffic from police and military too. With this in mind Mary had asked him if he had ever been fearful, if he had ever been frightened. He said: “You know Mary no I haven’t, because that’s what I’m here to do, and I know that. They’ve done it before in other lifetimes, they’ve taken me out. And if they take me out in this lifetime I’ll just do it again.” Mary became his friend, counsellor and abduction researcher. Ellis was the catalyst for Mary’s work in the paranormal field in which she had just started working when he came to her at a time when he and his family were having bizarre experiences, finger marks on his body (NOT human fingers), and shaven patches - there was no-one to talk to, there were no support groups for this - and Mary was open minded. Ellis found a circle with a cut down it and 5 very fine dots on the back of his ear. (Watch the movie ‘Taken’ by Spielberg.) Ellis went to the doctors. He also wanted to challenge them, give them something to look at. They didn’t want to know. He had a blood test done and the skin and blood department couldn’t explain. It IS bizarre when you drive yourself somewhere out of time and place, going somewhere and you have lost time and can’t account for the missing hours, which is what happened to Ellis. It was the 5th August 2004 when he drove Mary from Oxford to North Walsham, Norfolk. Mary wanted to catch up with family and friends before going back home to Australia. Ellis was planning on visiting his own friends, Paul and Ann Andrews in Long Sutton, Lincolnshire. They got to North Walsham at 3pm. They had a cup of tea and a chat at Mary’s folks’ place. Ellis was given directions to get to Long Sutton going the quickest way and he was told it would take just over an hour. He set off at 3.30pm. Ellis remembers thinking to himself as he was heading towards Thorpe Market, that after he’d got out of Kings Lynn, he should stop and phone Ann to tell her when he’d arrive. He must also phone his partner in Australia when he arrived. While he was still some way from King’s Lynn on the A148 he saw a lay-by and pulled in. It was not a conscious decision. It was secluded, hidden by a row of trees. Ellis saw a medium-sized white box truck already there. It had a name on the side. He recognised the name but forgot it for a time afterwards and it bugged him. He pulled up behind the truck and phoned Ann. He told her he was about 10 minutes the other side from her of Kings Lynn, so he would probably be about 40 minutes. That was allowing any extra time for delays, which is why he wanted to phone her AFTER Kings Lynn. Then he drove back out on to the road. Just then an identical white truck with the same name approached from the right and Ellis had slammed his foot down and went off on his way to Kings Lynn. When Ellis got on to the highway he noticed that he felt groggy and disorientated – and also burnt. Yet he felt fine before he had driven into that lay-by. When he got to Kings Lynn he came to a set of traffic lights and had to choose between two lanes, one left and the other straight ahead. Ellis knew the correct lane was the one straight ahead. But he turned left. He felt confused and tried to get back into the correct lane before the lights. He managed as someone left him through. He felt very strange all through the driving. When he approached Sutton Bridge he had a mechanical feeling of clicking into another gear unconsciously. He saw two no-entry signs, one on top of the other one, and slammed on his brakes. Every car behind him did the same and they hooted their horns in rage but Ellis wasn’t fully with-it. He didn’t know whether he was barred from crossing the bridge but there was nowhere else to go and drove through the no-entry signs. He arrived at Ann’s house in less than ten minutes and remembered he’d promised himself he would phone his partner. This is when he discovered the missing time because he asked Ann the time, expecting it to be about 5pm, and she said it was 6:40pm. Bloody heck, it took 3 hours to drive 70 miles! He’d been told it would take one hour roughly. Ann said he had phoned her at 4:15pm. Ellis was still feeling queasy and hot for a while. He’d lost about 2 hours, and yet the fuel gauge read the same the next morning as it did when he had left North Walsham, which was odd. Something happened in that lay-by. What? It was 22 months before Ellis could recall that name on the side of the truck. In May 2006 caught sight of the truck, on a TV drama that came on, ‘See No Evil’. It was about the Moors murders, and that white box truck appeared briefly in a street scene. It matched the truck in the lay-by exactly. The name on the side was REPCO. And that lay-by was near Sandringham. Repco is the name of a well-known automotive firm in Australia where Ellis used to live; I googled ‘Repco vehicles’ and found all these: ‘supplier of quality Auto Parts since 1957’.
But Ellis said that he hasn’t seen the name in the UK. How odd. There’s a murky feeling that the REP is short for REPTILIAN and it doesn’t go away. Two years later Ellis went back and had a look there at that bridge, and the no-entry signs were not on top of each other. They were on each side of the road on the pillars. He has also discovered that the lay-by is 2 or 3 miles away from the royal palace of Sandringham and opposite the B1440 that leads to it. Is there a time portal near there? Was his experience all connected to it? There have many been other occasions of missing time when the time disappeared, a total mystery, and he’d get to someone’s house in pitch darkness much later than they’d been expecting him. On 29 September 2006 going from Oxford to Long Sutton, and on 3 October 2008 on the M6 going to the Probe Conference in St Anne’s from Oxford. The next day, 4th October, he felt all this stuff coming at him. A medium took a photo and she was a professional photographer. Things, faces, UFO type non-human entities were seen very clearly. At the UFO conference in Laughlin Nevada 23 February-1 Mach 2008 he stayed at the Aquarius Casino Hotel where the conference was. He could smell cigarette smoke in his non-smoking room and felt his energy drained and lethargic. He felt under attack. On 7th October 2006 at the Probe conference in St Annes, UK, where Ellis spoke on the Saturday morning, Dean Warwick was also giving a speech called “Illusion or Reality?” Dean was a researcher and fighter for freedom of speech who had worked in secret ops, and his talk was about his association with US intelligence, including the JFK assassination, and he was about to name the anti-Christ and come up with who killed Kennedy. Just after Ellis’ speech he met Dean, who seemed lively and chatty, so wasn’t ill. He said to Ellis that he had something that he must tell him, he said ‘We need to talk’ - but they were interrupted when a guy came up and said ‘Brilliant talk’, and Ellis didn’t get to know what it was. Dean said ‘Tell you later’. Ellis made tea in the speakers’ tea room. Two guys walk in, two fast to be real – they’re just there. Dean expressed concerns about his own personal safety, being near a window in the team room, saying ‘I must stay away from the windows. Any minute I am expecting a red dot on my forehead’. People took this as a bit of paranoia and shrugged it off. Dean even said his wife had a premonition about a tragedy and that was why she didn’t come with him to the conference. Dean’s authenticity can be verified by the fact that there was an ex-military person there and Dean recognised him and stated where he’d seen him before, and this was correct, as this man was stunned because he had never told anyone about his posting. Ellis came in into the first few minutes that Dean had started his speech and he was talking about 9/11 with convincing evidence against it. He was saying: “The physics just don’t add up. How can a 110 storey building collapse in less than 10 seconds without some kind of additional assistance?” He revealed that they were experimenting with demolishing buildings using sonar. This could have brought the towers down so neat. Dean paused, moved to his right, and began introducing another topic, and then said “Oh before I do, I was gonna tell you about Bobbie Kennedy…” And he dropped dead. Ellis saw his spirit leave him. Everyone came to help, to try to revive him. Ben was there and he has written extensively about it - http://hpanwo.blogspot.com/2007/08/dean-warwick.html - as he has been a lover of the Probe conferences and has been attending them every year twice a year, he loves them so much that when they end he suffers what he calls his Post Probe Blues, and he always writes a review and it’s always entertaining. (This is his review of the ARC Conference in Bath which this article reviews http://hpanwo.blogspot.com/2010/09/bathing-into-history-part-1.html.) When Ben witnessed that tragedy that was his first time at Probe. It was he who called the ambulance. Others were administering first aid. There was a doctor in the audience and he recognised that this was not like any heart attack that he had ever seen. Ben is a hospital porter with nigh on 20 years’ service, and he supported this. But an autopsy said Dean died of a massive heart attack and blood clot to the brain. Right, okay – Dean’s wife had her premonition; Dean himself had a foreboding of danger, of a ‘red dot on his forehead’, and told Ellis he was being targeted; and Dean had claimed he had survived several attempts on his life and had received a number of them leading up to the conference. I think he was taken out. I think Dean was trying to blow the whistle before it was too late because he knew he was going to be killed. James Casbolt has confirmation from a contact in covert ops that Dean was silenced using an ELF (extremely low frequency) weapon. James Casbolt is a renegade and implanted former MI6 operative who exposes the nefarious activities he was part of. He was at that conference, and Ellis claims he could see in James’ aura strange grey intrusions around his head. Ellis sees people shape shifting. He saw Jason Andrews at Probe in March 2006. Behind him were a string of greys building up energy. In an advert for a Barclaycard Ellis noticed a guy in the ad shape shifted http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YyIU-MzaXlg. I watched and watched the video and couldn’t see anything different except a face that looked a bit long and fuzzy. What the hell is it? Why can’t I see it? There was a change in the music which I found slightly creepy. And it probably would make me feel bad without knowing why, and it’s happening all the time, as sometimes I feel degraded and hurt for no reason. If these things are subliminal, that’s insidious. I looked up ‘chairman of LAZARD’ and came up with a banking website http://www.bankingtimes.co.uk/30032010-lazard-appoints-chairman-of-lazard-italy/ LAZARD – LIZARD? On this site it talks about Marcus Agius http://www.lazard.com/PDF/agiusfinal.pdf retiring from Lazard London and Barclays plc announcing that Agius, upon retiring from Lazard, would be appointed their chairman. Marcus joined the Board at Barclays on 1 September 2006 as a non-executive Director and was appointed as Group Chairman from 1 January 2007 - http://group.barclays.com/About-us/Management-structure/The-Board/Biography/1225802846288.html. Ellis has named people personally who he has seen shape shifting – David Wilcock and Bill Ryan are among them. Another name for shape shifting is sliding. Ellis wrote the book “Dogged Days” which shows you his journey through his experiences. His other books are: Living in the Matrix, In These Signs Conquer, and The Esoteric Alphabet.
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Ellis ended the speech on a very sad note. It was 1997 and Ellis and most of his family were living in sunny Australia except one of Ellis’ brothers and his wife and three daughters, who were still in England. It was winter time in England. Tyffany, 9, was feeling under the weather with a sore throat. She was given antibiotics by the doctor and told to rest. She got worse, but went to bed in the evening aiming to feel better. Tyffany died in the night. One Sunday after Tyffany died Ellis went to a spiritualist church in Perth. The room was full except for one row of chairs, where he sat down. His skin started tingling and breaking out in goose bumps. He saw Tyffany sat on the chair between him and the wall, happy and smiling, sitting on her hands swinging her legs to and fro under the seat. Ellis could even describe what she was wearing. She turned to Ellis, looked him in the eye, and said “Tell my dad I love him and I’m going to leave a white feather for him. He has to know that I will always be around.” He felt a gentle touch on his arm, a sweet scent, and then she was gone. She knew her dad would be the one who found his grief the hardest to deal with. He couldn’t think why she wanted to leave him a feather. The next evening he phoned England. His brother answered, in tears. Ellis told him about seeing Tyffany, and his brother went silent… and Ellis wondered if he’d made a mistake. They carried on a conversation on another subject. And then, his brother said: “I love you Ellis, thanks”. Ellis spoke to his brother’s wife a few days later, on the phone, to tell Ellis that his brother had told him and that he had been searching everywhere for a feather but they had not found one. A few days later a little white feather had fallen on his brother’s doorstep and he put it in his wallet and cherished it to his heart. He thought it was the one. A couple of months passed and Ellis was getting into his car…there was a large fluffy white feather on the driver’s seat. How could it have got there? Was the feather her brother found the one she had promised him? And did she leave Ellis this feather? Ellis showed it to his partner, and she said she thought it must be for him as a thank you. Ellis placed it next to Tyffany’s photograph and said thank you. But he continued to wonder if this feather was meant for him. Ellis moved house, taking the feather with him, but moved it separately to keep it safe. He put it on a shelf in the new house. Then one day, it was gone for no reason, he searched everywhere, everywhere – I mean everywhere - couldn’t find it. Ellis was always good at finding things. He could not find this. Then he went to look in one place that still hadn’t been searched – his travel bag. But he avoided looking in there for weeks out of fear of not finding it. He felt guilty with himself for ‘losing’ it, because it would take so much effort to materialise a lovely pristine feather on the seat of a car and then to be carless with it. So he delayed looking in the bag in case it wasn’t in there. Then one night Tyffany came to him in a dream. She thanked him for passing her message on to her dad and said “There is going to be a new baby boy in the family”. Some weeks later a phone call came from England. The caller told Ellis a niece of his had had a scan and was expecting a baby boy, and no-one knew, not even her mum. Ellis still couldn’t bring himself to look in the bag for the feather. He started to convince himself that the feather had been meant for his brother. He was due to fly to England to see his brother in a few weeks. He had to find it. He plucked up the courage finally to go look in the bag. It wasn’t in there. Ellis decided it wouldn’t be in the trinket box either so it was futile to even bother to look, but just happened to pull the lid up anyway for no reason…there it was. He passed it on to his brother. And he and they will know that Tyffany will always be around. Love never dies.~
Michael Dunning was featured in Karen’s book ‘Soul Companions’ and he does shamanic work and gives lectures in embryology. Michael came to tell us about what a truly astonishing and fascinating being the Yew tree is. Following a near death encounter with an elemental spirit in the far north of Scotland and a second NDE several years later, his health was entirely destroyed. Michael was not really able to live on his own or care for himself and didn’t have a clue what to do for a career. He felt convinced he was dying and did not have much time left, and became lucid. He experienced visions regularly, with prolonged out of body states and intense pain. He was rescued by a friend who lived in a small cottage close to a two thousand year-old female Yew tree. This marked the beginning of a ten year period of healing, and he initiated himself into Shamanism. This healing of sickness was all done through nature in the vast enclosure of the tree. Michael believes the Yew tree was once regarded by indigenous Shaman healers as a great source of occult knowledge and the embryonic language of healing, the embryonic tree of life as its head descends and ascends like in an embryo. The embryo starts as a two-dimensional being, as inversion, which is the experience of being turned inside out and coming back into body in circulatory movements. The Yew tree is the tree that grows upwards and downwards. When they are left to their own devices they grow back down towards the ground - the symbol of the thirteenth rune, a symbol of new growth. There are very few Yew trees left in their natural state and if they are not tampered with they are immortal (most trees have had buttresses put in them filled with concrete). Yew trees grow hollow, and connect back into the ground to make a new trunk. The tree clones itself by growing back into the ground and regenerates itself. Yew trees are hermaphroditic – they change their sex. Michael’s initiation experience under the Tree was blood – the bark is often red; some ooze and look like blood, the ‘Knights of the Red Brands’ 4-10th century protectors of the House of Tara is linked to it, and it gives off a hallucinogenic toxin that gives a burning sensation in the eye, and gives rise to altered states under the tree. Where there is poison there is also a cure. We have tasted enough poison. Yews have a feminine birthing nature. Figurines have been carved with a Yew branch on them near the vulva – this signifies birth. (The stork is a symbol of birth, there’s a stork standing atop a Yew rune on images that you find on Rosslyn Chapel and places like that.) This is a portal connecting us with the natural world, and a keeper of ancient memory. The yew tree is like a magic mirror to mankind; for Michael it brought back his consciousness. Yew trees were decimated for wood for warfare, using it as bows. The National Cancer Institute realised these trees were good in cases of cancer. Yew is a healing balm for cancer and we’re looking at a tree that is the most incredible tool for rejuvenation, and yet there is a big army because of the Yew tree that’s been misused for the most negative agendas. It’s a miracle Yews still exist. Who is protecting them? A group interested in protecting these trees don’t want knowledge about them to be known. The knowledge was suppressed and trees were destroyed. What happened to these Yews? Where did they all go? Significant place names in the UK give away their earlier prevalence, imprinted into the land: Yew Isle, Yew Wood, Yolton, Yew Valley (significant in Norse mythology), Yew Vale etc. How come we don’t know all of this? The knowledge of Yew trees has been lost. Yet Yew trees have survived catastrophes. The Yew is the World Tree Yggdrasil. In Norse mythology humanity originated as the “Hallowed Seed” of the World Tree and we are children of these ancient sentient beings on our planet, who each of them reached three of their primordial roots into three worlds, each world containing a divine well – the world of gods, the world of giants and the world of the dead. http://www.yewshamanism.com/ and http://www.sacredyewinstitute.com/
Pull your fear up out of you
Next up, we had Peter Taylor, an environmentalist and bird shaman who had his awakening as an adolescent while lying down looking at the sky seeing a falcon fly over that exchanged a look with him. It was his totem bird. We have seen Peter before at a good few conferences and he came to talk about Shamanism combined with climate change, and survivalist issues. He claims to be no climate change denier and believes in peak oil, and doesn’t buy ‘there’s enough for everybody’, that two billion are gonna go without the washing machine etc they want. He believes that we are heading towards a crunch – population, food, climate, economy. He is of the opinion that fossils and oil are running out. (I believe there’s an answer to that: free energy, if indeed oil is running out at all. Check out the findings and experience of ex-oil executive, Ian R Crane at http://www.ianrcrane.co.uk/. I say it’s all engineered.) Peter noted that resulting from the Pakistan floods, cattle are dying of cold in Russia. The floods have got all world leaders wondering about its cause and it’s not CO2. His concern was how to stop humanity destroying itself. He thinks something else will intervene, like economic collapse. The USA, Europe and Japan are bankrupt at state level and investing in BRIC countries – Brazil, Russia, India, Indonesia and China. These countries are free of debt. They have the money; rich countries can buy their way out. What do they do with it? he says. Peter provides the ecological science background for the team at www.ethos-uk.com. He is into research and policy analysis on environmental issues, having advised governments, the European Commission, and UN organisations. He has contributed to international treaties on ocean protection. Recent work has included consultancy to UK government agencies and non-government organisations on renewable energy policy and rural issues (he sits on the National Advisory Group for the Community Renewables Initiative (a joint Countryside Agency and DTI programme). He is the author of the book “Chill”. (See my article “Chill” at http://spreadingtheword-now.blogspot.com/search?updated-max=2010-08-15T15%3A14%3A00-07%3A00&max-results=7.) The climate change with us now is mostly due to natural cycles says Peter, recently linked to the solar minimum. He thinks oceans have started to cool and there’s been no extra warming of the planet in the last ten years. The ocean heat content is the real measurement of warming. The planet is losing heat this minute not gaining it. Oceans have stopped storing heat since 2005. There’s more ice in Antarctica than ever. Al Gore set up a carbon trading bank six years through Goldman Sachs charging YOU carbon tax bills to pay straight into their bank, to an undemocratic, unelected group. Money doesn’t go to anyone elected. Really dark people have been involved with surveillance of our activities. Peter found that his enemies were those ‘friends of the earth’ and other Greenpeace figures who tried to attack, remove and discredit him when “Chill” came out last year and he asks was it an error? Was it deliberate? In whose interests are the messages? Peter has knowledge of renewable energy, turning one fuel into another, and they don’t want to know. He started to think ‘Hmmm, what’s going on?’ Spiritual truth doesn’t enter into the equation in the environmental movement. Greenpeace are in cahoots with the UN! They tried to get a green type activist on the Council in Glastonbury – one. The rest are freemasons, doctors, etc, who run the town. People researching for genuine truth are NOT funded. Little wonder that most of what we are being offered is dealing with the symptoms and not healing. The cost of survivalism as is being put to you is at the cost of beauty and soul. What’s the point in living if all those are sacrificed? What to do? Grow your own food. Use sustainable housing. Reform the banking systems. They do not want it. They want people industrialized. They won’t allow forest protection or de-militarisation. We require transition to a higher level of consciousness. Peter says we need to work on our chakras. The first root chakra = security. If you doubt your security the kundalini energy is not available to you while you are worried about survival – it’s fucked. (So I don’t worry about survival.) The second chakra is to do with sexuality. The third is personal power. The fourth is the heart. We must be centred in the heart not the head. The fifth chakra is the voice. Everyone should be free to verbalise their opinion. Don’t be afraid to speak the truth. The sixth chakra is vision and visualization, individual and collective dreaming. And the seventh chakra surrenders the ego of self to a higher consciousness. Peter said that the heart shrivels in Love is there is no security down here to deal with our fear. The heart has to be empowered from below. In Shamanism, he says, they use Blues Sufi music to move these lower emotions up, up, up to the heart from below. THIS is the work that’s got to be done. Create the freedom to move and a vibrant community. How? Through meditation on the seven chakras and the return of feminine wisdom. There must be respect and protection for tribal societies. Shamanic knowledge must be retrieved and taught in history. This knowledge has gone and herbalists have been called ‘witches’. Sacred sexuality of the kundalini must be taught; there must be celebration of the erotic and respect for menstruation and dreamtime. Lack of respect for menstruation is all over our culture. There must be empowerment of the will and stimulation of the creative mind. We must nurture development and vision. Sticking an alphabet in front of a child before the age of eight is bad. And a lot of our culture avoids the subject of death; Shamanism prepares for it. The divine feminine is no trivial eye candy. To develop our voice and vision, Peter recommended that we go and see the film ‘Gainsbourg’ because of its celebration of eroticism and beautiful women.
The devolution of Man
Where did we come from as human beings? All physicists know about Pierre and Marie Curie, but they never told you that they were into the paranormal, did they? They never told you that human fossils have been caught in the strata bed with old dinosaurs, did they? We’re supposed to have grown from apes into a wise, wise man, as the story should run according to Darwin. Scientists always, always endorse Darwin’s theory; most people do, and we always see these key figure heads on paper money. How about a make-over, a Vedic alternative to this theory, and christening it the theory of ‘human Devolution’? How about alternative researchers who are not afraid to go off the beaten track to seek the truth and declare it? Even though their findings get called a ‘cornucopia of dreck’ and ‘humbug’? Even though they get mud thrown at them for doing so? One such individual of integrity came to share such an alternative postulation with us. You know, someone can be sitting right next to you and you don’t realise who they are, as in the case of Michael. At that time in the morning all I could think of was stuffing breakfast down my chops. The stranger that was seated next to our table in the hotel restaurant that morning at breakfast was none other than an eminent American researcher by the name of Michael A Cremo, and we are thankful we had a good conversation with him. He was talking about his book that he wrote called ‘Forbidden Archaeology’ which I have not read. I remember him saying he likes to rename it ‘Forbidding Archaeology’, probably because there’s enough information in it to fill an excavation site. Michael pondered on how modern Darwinists tell us that we are complex organs of molecules, material beings. Even when we love we are chemicals playing it out in our brain, they say. It’s an illusion that we are machines made of matter from our evolved mother Lucy. He does not accept this theory and evidence contradicts it. But as people do accept it, alas they become materialistic in the goals they set themselves. (It is deliberate in my opinion.) An over materialistic sense of identity and we are in competition for survival to preserve our selfish genes. This attitude is responsible for the intense levels of conflict in the world. The solution has to got to be in going back to the root of who we are. We need a new science. The existing model needs to be thrown out the window and we have to start over, with the question: what is a human being? What we are NOT is just a set of chemicals. We are a mix of matter, mind and consciousness. Eight years of digging and plunging the depths of archaeology and ancient Sanskrit writings tell us humans have existed since the beginnings of Earth – ‘Forbidden Archaeology’ and ‘The Hidden History of the Human Race’ (Michael’s research) tell us we existed millions and millions of years, by virtue of bones, artefacts. Michael asserts we did not evolve up from matter; instead we devolved down or from the realm of pure consciousness or spirit. He bases his response on modern science and the world's great traditional wisdom, having studied ancient Sanskrit and the Vedic philosophy of ancient India. He talked about an archaeological site in Mexico at Hueyatlaco, in Valsequillo, where Virginia Steen-McIntyre, a geologist, was called to the site and a team excavated the site in 1962 using four methods. Sophisticated man-made tools were discovered in geographic strata that multiple peer reviewed studies have dated to ca. 250,000 years before the present. These findings were orders of magnitude older than the scientific model which generally traces widespread human migration to 13,000 to 16,000 years ago, and needless to say, controversial. They said ‘we can’t accept that’. They refused to publish the age for the site. So she published it independently and was labeled a troublemaker and a maverick publicity seeker. She got backlash from the scientific community who repudiated it, and it has only occasionally been discussed. Discoveries of J Reid Mar, by Henry Fairfield Osborn, say that humans were existing in England two to three million years ago. In 1979 May Leakey discovered footprints in Laetoli that are not modern human footprints. William B Holmes, anthropologist, is one of the people responsible for knowledge filtering. In 1993 when Forbidden Archaeology was released there was a vast array of response, some scathing, and some not, one from Graham Hancock who wrote Fingerprints of the Gods referred to it as "One of the landmarks in intellectual achievements of the late 20th century," and it got international attention from both positive and negative viewpoints. Then in 1996 NBC aired its special The Mysterious Origins of Man, hosted by Charlton Heston, and featured the book. Establishment scientists felt threatened by this programme. They lobbied the Federal Communications Commission to censure and fine NBC for airing it but they were unsuccessful. Michael talked about out-of-body experiences, heart attack patients leaving the bodies. Reports given by patients match doctors’ reports. Ian Ian Pretyman Stevenson, MD, was a psychiatrist and he was head of the Division of Perceptual Studies at the University of Virginia, which investigates the paranormal. He considered that the concept of reincarnation may supplement those of heredity and environment in helping modern medicine to understand aspects of human behaviour and development. He travelled extensively for over 40 years investigating 3,000 childhood cases that suggested to him the possibility of past lives. Stevenson was the author of several books, including Twenty Cases Suggestive of Reincarnation (1974), Children Who Remember Previous Lives (1987), Where Reincarnation and Biology Intersect (1997), Reincarnation and Biology (1997), and European Cases of the Reincarnation Type (2003).. He reported that the children he studied frequently mentioned having died a violent death, with what seemed to be clear memories of the manner of death; but also they usually started to speak of these past lives between the ages of two and four, and by the time they reached seven or eight, they ceased to do so. Critics have picked at Stevenson’s research methods and conclusions, and his work has been described as pseudoscience – again, the same old story. The genius Carl Sagan said there are three areas of ESP which deserve serious study. Evidence that there is more to a human being than a set of chemicals living in a multi-leveled universe, or multi-verse, is:
1) Communication from departed humans;
2) Possession by departed humans of living bodies;
3) Apparitions;
4) Possession by super-human beings (such as demonic possession, as in ‘The Exorcist’)
5) UFOs and alien abductions
An example of communication from the departed is Sir Oliver Lodge, a scientist remembered for his studies of life after death and study of telepathy; he was a member of the Ghost Club. (He was a member of the Fabian Society.) (I have personally been to a channeling and witnessed the voice of Sir Oliver Lodge come through.) Lodge visited several mediums and wrote about his experience in channeled books. An example of possession is ‘The Exorcist’ which is based on an actual exorcism. A boy was possessed by a spirit that was extremely demonic and did super-human type things. UFO/alien abductions and nuts n bolts researchers report telepathy and people being floated through walls. John E Mack, psychiatrist, wrote ‘Passport to the Cosmos’. He did decade-plus study of 200 men and women who reported recurrent alien encounters. He initially suspected that the persons were suffering from mental illness, but when no obvious pathologies were present in the persons he interviewed it piqued his interest. Mack collected data and ignored the prevailing materialist, dualist and "either/or" analysis, and began concerted study and interviews. Many of those he interviewed reported that their encounters had affected the way they regarded the world, including producing a heightened sense of spirituality and environmental concern. (That has been reported by abductees Mary Rodwell has spoken to.) Mack died in a car crash a little while after he did a conference in Glastonbury where Michael met him. In Shamanism there are reports of travel between levels taken by spirit guides. There are masses of Vedic literature on the Vimanas (spacecraft). There is the communication through crop circles. The evidence goes on. We devolved. We began our existence as Love, as beings of pure consciousness. We became selfish and egotistical, descending to the lower levels like an angel falling in the gross matter of bodies. We became consciously covered by matter. We fell from pure consciousness – man fell from grace, which has many forms. Michael adds that the Demiurge is a form of pure consciousness translated into material form. The creator God, Brahman, descended to a male/female Goddess and the sexual activity begat us, making use of Bijas or seeds. Life on earth has been seeded from extra-terrestrial sources and this life on earth is also seeded elsewhere in the cosmos. Forms, plants, animals – are forms from sexual activity of gods and goddesses on a higher level. Higher beings can manipulate and produce bodies not of their own kind through interspecies embryo transfer. There’s a process where it can be reversed to restore consciousness to its original state – yoga, contemplation and Shamanic exercises. The cosmos is divided into regions that contain different proportions of the three substances of purely spiritual consciousnesses, mental organizations, and ordinary matter, in that order. Conscious beings exist in all regions. Man is very old and degraded from pure consciousness - to mind - to material body. This is the devolution of Man – the Fall of Man.
http://www.mcremo.com/index.html;
http://www.humandevolution.com/;
http://www.forbiddenarcheologist.com/
Wilhelm Reich and UFOs
There was another gentleman we were sat with at the breakfast table, and also the previous evening when we joined the others sat outside on the terrace for a drink. Ben already knew him having met him before, but this was the first time for me. He was Ken Thomas, parapolitics researcher. Jerry E Smith was his dear lost friend, whom Ken paid a tribute to for a decent length of time in the introduction. Ken showed us a filmed lecture that Jerry had done, on the screen. As a memoriam and to serve, Jerry’s website http://www.jerryesmith.com// remains online after Jerry passed away on March 8, 2010, at the age of 59. Jerry had been battling with pancreatic cancer for the past two months. Who is Jerry? He was s a writer, researcher, activist, editor and lecturer, and made over 300 radio and television appearances and successful speaking engagements from Brisbane to The Bahamas. He is the author of:“WEATHER WARFARE: The Military's Plan to Draft Mother Nature” and HAARP: The Ultimate Weapon of the Conspiracy; and co-author with George Piccard (who wrote LIQUID CONSPIRACY: JFK, LSD, the CIA, Area 51, and UFOs) of: SECRETS OF THE HOLY LANCE: The Spear of Destiny in History & Legend. Since HAARP's North American release in 1998 it has been translated into Portuguese, in 2005, by Editora Aleph of São Paulo, Brazil as "ARMAS ELETROMAGNÉTICAS: Seria o Projeto Haarp a Próxima Ameaça Mundial?" (that means: 'Electromagnetic weapons: will Project Haarp be the next global threat?') and in 2001 it was translated into Polish by Amber Supermedia as "HAARP Bron Ostateczna." In 1991, Jerry Smith and Jim Keith, author of Black Helicopters over America: Strikeforce for the New World Order and numerous other conspiracy and mind control books, founded the National UFO Museum (NUFOM) in Reno, Nevada. From 1991 to 1994 Jerry was the Executive Director of NUFOM, while Mr. Keith acted as the Chairman of the Board. Jerry also edited and wrote for NUFOM's quarterly journal, "Notes from the Hangar". Timothy Leary was a psychologist who researched into psychedelic drugs later on in life and encouraged the use of LSD for tuning in. He died in 1995 from prostate cancer. Jerry Smith as mentioned suffered pancreatic cancer. Jack Ruby died of lung cancer. So did Meg Russell. Ken said ‘Say what you will about fast acting cancers’, almost a hint at not ruling out any possibility these people were taken out. Jerry’s passing came one month before the gulf oil spill. Jim Keith who wrote ‘Black Helicopters over America’ fell from a stage and broke his knee at the annual Burning Man Arts Festival held in Nevada, he went to the hospital there and died shortly after surgery, when a blood clot entered his lung, although the coroner's report listed the cause of death as "blunt force trauma". Cryptically, he stated this before his death: "I have this feeling that if they put me under I'm not coming back". Jerry used to talk about HAARP – ‘the higher in the atmosphere something is released, the longer it stays in the atmosphere’ he said. As we know, chemtrails or warming is not caused by CO2 or bovine farts. Pilots could be fed with ‘It’s to modify the weather, to avert global warming’ while the secret purpose is very different. Google ‘GO engineering’. They are involved in monitoring aerosols. Two factions of the elite, the bankers and Watermelons, according to Jerry, are trying to create a world government. The Watermelons believe western civilization is a bad idea and want to take us back to the preindustrial revolution and see an excuse for a police state and chemtrails. (The same tiny group of elite controls both bankers and Watermelon families right at the very top of the pyramid.) The control of hurricanes is another excuse. The speech said we have proof humans can intentionally set off earthquakes. A lot of this is classified knowledge. In 1989 Project Seal developed a project to develop tsunami bombs that could play a role greater than the atom bomb. He said: ‘I want you to take action because this is your planet’. After the film ended and Ken started to speak, his topic was mainly on Wilhelm Reich and how he used orgone energy to chase and combat UFOs. Wilhelm was an Austrian-American psychiatrist and psychoanalyst, actually one of the first psychoanalysts. He worked with Sigmond Freud. It was later in life when he discovered orgone. Wilhelm Reich went to Arizona with orgone equipment. He believed that DOR (deadly orgone, which is negative orgone energy) came from the exhaust of UFOs. He was locked up because of the work he did with orgone that would be liberating for mankind. Several of his publications were burned by the FDA. He died in jail of heart failure. Ken uncovered some information. He found out that the American government WAS interested in Reich’s work before he was smeared and lambasted. In February 1954 the president, Eisenhower, just vanished at some event and was gone several hours. Where ever he went, Eisenhower went to see Reich, who had got very into the subject of UFOs in his later years and thought they might be connected with orgone energy. When he was working with his cloudbusters, he had some experiences of them. People using cloudbusters today have said that they have a tendency to attract UFOs when they are in use. Reich discovered positive orgone and the negative orgone radiation DOR (deadly orgone). The latter can make people very ill, even kill them. Reich once used the Cloudbuster on a UFO – he may have destroyed it. Any government will take an interest in anything that can be weaponized. So Reich has had dealings with Eisenhower, and he’s been to Roswell and has spoken about the crash in 1947. If Reich rebelled or wouldn’t go along with their negative agenda, well… look what happened to him. Maybe he only wanted his researched to be used for the good of mankind. Ken talked about a link between the Kennedy assassination and the UFO sighted on Maury Island, an island near Seattle. There was a boat sailing close by that island in 1947 that was attacked by UFOs. One of the crew was threatened off talking about it by ‘Men in Black’. The witness, Fred Crisman, saw the UFO and he was subpoenaed as part of an investigation in the JFK assassination. I don’t know, I just think Kennedy was killed for the same reason that anyone is who poses a threat for some reason. No matter who was used to do it, they are all vehicles for the same force. And there is a covert infiltration of ufology.
Bringing the holy to the possible
This was a lovely service, an exercise we all partook of. Nick Clements is the son of a journalist communist and began as a stand-up comedian. He became a community artist. He worked in New York, Philadelphia, Berlin. He came to talk about Shamanism and indigenous people. What does Nick ‘do for a living?’ His job is to create beauty in the world – to bring others to an understanding of how beautiful they all are in their creativity! In Mayan Guatemalan tradition the thirteen cycles are called worlds. The first was given birth to by the thirteenth, and the thirteenth was impossible, it doesn’t exist! Don’t challenge what this says, ok? Just draw it in. It does not exist BUT…each world is of a duration of 20,000 years. We are just finishing the fourth and stepping into the fifth. We are shamanic. Each and every one of us has a true indigenous nature within, in the earth that dwells in us. We all have wisdom, knowledge, beauty. Up until the stage of the fourth world 40,000 years ago we were at the community stage like bees in a hive; the concept of individuality began with the fourth cycle and the bee became an individual. They gave themselves because they believed in the consciousness of being whole. We need to connect to that idea of the collective. Shamanism is all about that, about connection to the whole and to ancestry. After 20,000 years of living as individuals we need to relearn these connections to the past. Our ancestors sang us into existence. Let’s exist. “I am” did not exist 40,000 years ago. Concepts change. Then someone said “I am me”, and we spent the last 20,000 years developing the individual. The next cycle was science, the “Prove that you exist!” which cut off the holy, the impossible. New science says: “Now the impossible exists”. Maybe string theory has thirteen worlds?! The fifth world is the convergence of those two concepts - “How can I ritualise science? Bring those two things together? Bring the holy to the possible?” The soul’s purpose is that the individual comes with a gift we bring when we are born on a community and individual level. So, the third circle of life is about collectivism and ancestry; the fourth is about the individual and the scientific; and the fifth brings the two together. The fifth world is a spiral, it’s holistic, and this holistic idea is a very new concept that must indeed be because of a shift in consciousness. The dark of science and the light of shamanism meet and embrace. We have spent too long in opposition. 2012 is a door, a gate. Don’t freak out! Don’t fill it with fear, we’re just moving there. Step into love!!! Accept your planet as a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful PLACE!!!! How can we bring those two things together? Beauty. In California a lot of people are lovely, they’re full of light. It is vitally important to not judge. There’s no point in judging pissheads going out for a fight to shed blood – they’re desperate people. This next age is about empathy and compassion. You can’t judge someone who gets flabbily obese from eating shit food – you don’t know what misery led him to it. Walk a mile in another man’s moccasins before you judge him. There has to be a change in attitude. But we hippy free loving people are as vulnerable as fuck. It is dangerous because there isn’t the sense of security and a lot of men fall back on violence – and that’s not manly. The sweet part about this Sunday service is we were each given a piece of paper to write down a loving message to someone else, and when we had done it, had to fold up the piece of paper and put it in a bag. The bag was shuffled and the pieces of paper were passed around. We all got another message written by someone else. This was the message I got:
A drawing of the galaxy, with the words “Love the universe that is me” written in a spiral flowing out from the periphery of the galaxy; our solar system was marked with a cross where it is, on one of the spiral arms of the Milky Way.
And this was my message to someone else:
“All those lying on a cold church step
Grieving their lost children and crying
They’ve done with it and wept
I am the gloom collector who came in sighing
Muting the shadows away
We shall take them under our wing
To them refuge bring
No sheep shall be left to wander
ALL WILL BE GATHERED IN”
Love never dies
At the commencement of this moving talk by Ellis C Taylor, there were problems with the laptop used to project his photographs and evidence on the screen. It played up! At every conference there have nearly always been technical problems of some sort and some often say: “Someone doesn’t want this information out”, with a giggle and a smile, and being as we are we all we sussed that and laughed it off. And of course by doing that, the power that didn’t win waned, probably moving on another vibration to synch with, and there would be another laptop we could use and everything would be fine. This talk was to urge people to take notice of their own experiences, and is a true account of Ellis’ own personal experiences of communication and contact with beings from other worlds and alternative realities. He was asking us to look at what is being hidden from us in so many ways. He said Michael Jackson has had experiences not too different from himself as he was much tied into the mega spell that is about the stopping of human consciousness. He has unravelled Jacko’s death using numerology - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nk_io1iatzE&feature=related. To anyone still pondering on the extraterrestrial question, we are not alone; we never were and never will be. We are not lonely accidents of an explosive cosmic scramble, and our lives are not meaningless, inconsequential aftershocks of it. Ellis met Mary Rodwell (http://www.acern.com.au/) in 1996, the founder and director of ACERN, the Australian Close Encounter Research Network. She provides counselling for contactees and wrote the book “Awakening: How Extraterrestrial Contact Can Change Your Life”. I have written about Mary in an article called 'Contact' at http://whatliesbeyond-ustane.blogspot.com/2010/07/glastonbury-symposium.html. Ellis Taylor’s early research was to do with missing children and Satanism and found Sandringham was linked to it. There is a regiment made up of Sandringham workers. Ellis has been uncovering the hidden, that’s why his website is called ‘Looking into the Dark Places’. His site has been explored by a lot of secret agencies, a lot of traffic from police and military too. With this in mind Mary had asked him if he had ever been fearful, if he had ever been frightened. He said: “You know Mary no I haven’t, because that’s what I’m here to do, and I know that. They’ve done it before in other lifetimes, they’ve taken me out. And if they take me out in this lifetime I’ll just do it again.” Mary became his friend, counsellor and abduction researcher. Ellis was the catalyst for Mary’s work in the paranormal field in which she had just started working when he came to her at a time when he and his family were having bizarre experiences, finger marks on his body (NOT human fingers), and shaven patches - there was no-one to talk to, there were no support groups for this - and Mary was open minded. Ellis found a circle with a cut down it and 5 very fine dots on the back of his ear. (Watch the movie ‘Taken’ by Spielberg.) Ellis went to the doctors. He also wanted to challenge them, give them something to look at. They didn’t want to know. He had a blood test done and the skin and blood department couldn’t explain. It IS bizarre when you drive yourself somewhere out of time and place, going somewhere and you have lost time and can’t account for the missing hours, which is what happened to Ellis. It was the 5th August 2004 when he drove Mary from Oxford to North Walsham, Norfolk. Mary wanted to catch up with family and friends before going back home to Australia. Ellis was planning on visiting his own friends, Paul and Ann Andrews in Long Sutton, Lincolnshire. They got to North Walsham at 3pm. They had a cup of tea and a chat at Mary’s folks’ place. Ellis was given directions to get to Long Sutton going the quickest way and he was told it would take just over an hour. He set off at 3.30pm. Ellis remembers thinking to himself as he was heading towards Thorpe Market, that after he’d got out of Kings Lynn, he should stop and phone Ann to tell her when he’d arrive. He must also phone his partner in Australia when he arrived. While he was still some way from King’s Lynn on the A148 he saw a lay-by and pulled in. It was not a conscious decision. It was secluded, hidden by a row of trees. Ellis saw a medium-sized white box truck already there. It had a name on the side. He recognised the name but forgot it for a time afterwards and it bugged him. He pulled up behind the truck and phoned Ann. He told her he was about 10 minutes the other side from her of Kings Lynn, so he would probably be about 40 minutes. That was allowing any extra time for delays, which is why he wanted to phone her AFTER Kings Lynn. Then he drove back out on to the road. Just then an identical white truck with the same name approached from the right and Ellis had slammed his foot down and went off on his way to Kings Lynn. When Ellis got on to the highway he noticed that he felt groggy and disorientated – and also burnt. Yet he felt fine before he had driven into that lay-by. When he got to Kings Lynn he came to a set of traffic lights and had to choose between two lanes, one left and the other straight ahead. Ellis knew the correct lane was the one straight ahead. But he turned left. He felt confused and tried to get back into the correct lane before the lights. He managed as someone left him through. He felt very strange all through the driving. When he approached Sutton Bridge he had a mechanical feeling of clicking into another gear unconsciously. He saw two no-entry signs, one on top of the other one, and slammed on his brakes. Every car behind him did the same and they hooted their horns in rage but Ellis wasn’t fully with-it. He didn’t know whether he was barred from crossing the bridge but there was nowhere else to go and drove through the no-entry signs. He arrived at Ann’s house in less than ten minutes and remembered he’d promised himself he would phone his partner. This is when he discovered the missing time because he asked Ann the time, expecting it to be about 5pm, and she said it was 6:40pm. Bloody heck, it took 3 hours to drive 70 miles! He’d been told it would take one hour roughly. Ann said he had phoned her at 4:15pm. Ellis was still feeling queasy and hot for a while. He’d lost about 2 hours, and yet the fuel gauge read the same the next morning as it did when he had left North Walsham, which was odd. Something happened in that lay-by. What? It was 22 months before Ellis could recall that name on the side of the truck. In May 2006 caught sight of the truck, on a TV drama that came on, ‘See No Evil’. It was about the Moors murders, and that white box truck appeared briefly in a street scene. It matched the truck in the lay-by exactly. The name on the side was REPCO. And that lay-by was near Sandringham. Repco is the name of a well-known automotive firm in Australia where Ellis used to live; I googled ‘Repco vehicles’ and found all these: ‘supplier of quality Auto Parts since 1957’.
http://www.ellisctaylor.com/
http://www.biggyboo.com/
http://www.acern.com.au/
Ellis ended the speech on a very sad note. It was 1997 and Ellis and most of his family were living in sunny Australia except one of Ellis’ brothers and his wife and three daughters, who were still in England. It was winter time in England. Tyffany, 9, was feeling under the weather with a sore throat. She was given antibiotics by the doctor and told to rest. She got worse, but went to bed in the evening aiming to feel better. Tyffany died in the night. One Sunday after Tyffany died Ellis went to a spiritualist church in Perth. The room was full except for one row of chairs, where he sat down. His skin started tingling and breaking out in goose bumps. He saw Tyffany sat on the chair between him and the wall, happy and smiling, sitting on her hands swinging her legs to and fro under the seat. Ellis could even describe what she was wearing. She turned to Ellis, looked him in the eye, and said “Tell my dad I love him and I’m going to leave a white feather for him. He has to know that I will always be around.” He felt a gentle touch on his arm, a sweet scent, and then she was gone. She knew her dad would be the one who found his grief the hardest to deal with. He couldn’t think why she wanted to leave him a feather. The next evening he phoned England. His brother answered, in tears. Ellis told him about seeing Tyffany, and his brother went silent… and Ellis wondered if he’d made a mistake. They carried on a conversation on another subject. And then, his brother said: “I love you Ellis, thanks”. Ellis spoke to his brother’s wife a few days later, on the phone, to tell Ellis that his brother had told him and that he had been searching everywhere for a feather but they had not found one. A few days later a little white feather had fallen on his brother’s doorstep and he put it in his wallet and cherished it to his heart. He thought it was the one. A couple of months passed and Ellis was getting into his car…there was a large fluffy white feather on the driver’s seat. How could it have got there? Was the feather her brother found the one she had promised him? And did she leave Ellis this feather? Ellis showed it to his partner, and she said she thought it must be for him as a thank you. Ellis placed it next to Tyffany’s photograph and said thank you. But he continued to wonder if this feather was meant for him. Ellis moved house, taking the feather with him, but moved it separately to keep it safe. He put it on a shelf in the new house. Then one day, it was gone for no reason, he searched everywhere, everywhere – I mean everywhere - couldn’t find it. Ellis was always good at finding things. He could not find this. Then he went to look in one place that still hadn’t been searched – his travel bag. But he avoided looking in there for weeks out of fear of not finding it. He felt guilty with himself for ‘losing’ it, because it would take so much effort to materialise a lovely pristine feather on the seat of a car and then to be carless with it. So he delayed looking in the bag in case it wasn’t in there. Then one night Tyffany came to him in a dream. She thanked him for passing her message on to her dad and said “There is going to be a new baby boy in the family”. Some weeks later a phone call came from England. The caller told Ellis a niece of his had had a scan and was expecting a baby boy, and no-one knew, not even her mum. Ellis still couldn’t bring himself to look in the bag for the feather. He started to convince himself that the feather had been meant for his brother. He was due to fly to England to see his brother in a few weeks. He had to find it. He plucked up the courage finally to go look in the bag. It wasn’t in there. Ellis decided it wouldn’t be in the trinket box either so it was futile to even bother to look, but just happened to pull the lid up anyway for no reason…there it was. He passed it on to his brother. And he and they will know that Tyffany will always be around. Love never dies.~
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